My mother was kind and intelligent, but she was physically and mentally weak.
Her father was a reclusive man who spoke little.
Her mother loved animals, and she probably chose her father just because she liked his appearance.
When she opened the lid, it turned out that she had quit her job at a major company, worked at various jobs, immersed herself in her hobbies, and made no attempt to communicate with others.
Her mother must have been lonely.
She started complaining and complaining even to her children.
Her mother was a negative thinker, a foul mouth, and a source of poison for her.
I wasn’t consciously human, but I acted like a child so as not to stand out from the crowd.
What’s more, she was born with a large birthmark that couldn’t be seen when she was wearing clothes, and when she was little, her mother would distort her face every time they took a bath together.
The bruise was bright red, like the scar from her burn, and when she looked in the mirror, she was shocked.
Her mother didn’t even want to see my birthmark, so she quickly handed over the responsibility of bathing her to her father.
And I was physically weak and had a fever.
It’s probably due to my natural constitution, but my physical strength is less than half that of a normal person.
Without a name for the disease, people would not understand it at all, and when she became too ill to attend school, her mother treated her as if she were sick and abused her.
Just being alive was physically exhausting, but no one understood.
What would happen if you carried out your daily life with weights weighing several kilograms attached to your head and limbs?
If you can imagine it, I think you can understand how painful it is.
I lost my mind when I thought that I would live as a human for almost 100 years until my lifespan is reached.
The children involved were all innocent, but they were too young to speak at all, and I couldn’t understand what was fun about playing games at kindergarten.
The only people who can relate to the story are old people with a lot of life experience and a refined mind.
I wanted to quickly finish my life as a human and go back to where I was.
There must have been a mission, but I just couldn’t remember.
However, he did remember that before he was reincarnated, he made a promise to someone that he would never take his own life, no matter how painful it was.
Usagi knew that he had to grow up as an innocent person without being influenced by Kakujin.
Although my memory has been erased, I know that it came from the other side of the sky, so I just looked up at the sky.
During difficult times, a rainbow almost always appeared.
I often saw double rainbows.
Every time I saw a rainbow, I felt like my friends over there were telling me to do my best.
I calmly observed my parents and realized that there are some people who are still immature even as they get older.
But I didn’t want people to deny my existence because I was physically weak and didn’t listen to them, and it hurt me.
If I displease my mother, I get bullied a lot.
Perhaps because he was bullied by his parents at home, his self-esteem decreased.
All three of us sisters were bullied.
However, since I know that the body is just a container for the soul, I think the psychological damage was minimal.
Cinderella was rescued and had a happy ending, but there was no one to save her.
All you can do is try to make yourself as comfortable as possible with the body and environment you are given.
I had a habit of checking my mother’s expression to make sure I wasn’t upsetting her, who was always emotionally unstable.
Moreover, he was physically weak and often missed school due to illness.
Although he was kind, he didn’t like to stand out and was the type of person who was weak-willed and never hit back even if someone attacked him, so now that I think about it, it was easy for people to target him.
Of course bullying is worse.
But the most likely targets are those who stand out from their surroundings and have weaknesses that can be exploited.
People who bully have bad relations with their parents or are dissatisfied with them, so they are just venting their frustrations.
Those looking for prey seek out the weak and are always looking for a reason to attack.
If there is no reason, they will distort the facts.
Even when I was being bullied, I pretended to be okay.
Because I knew that the more I responded, the more happy the other person would be.
I calmly observed myself and my surroundings, but at that time I didn’t understand why I was being treated maliciously.
The first time I was bullied was when I was in fifth or sixth grade at elementary school.
When I was in fifth grade, there was a boy I was good friends with who sat in front of me and talked to me often.
One day when I went to school, I saw the umbrellas of that child and me hanging on the blackboard and the class notebook.
After that, people in the class started making fun of him.
At the same time, I began to suffer from the harassment of being left out of the group whenever it was time to decide on a group.
My friends who I usually play with would harass me by removing me from the group.
Perhaps because of this, my homeroom teacher was mean and tolerated the bullying, and enjoyed watching me become an outcast.
I still can’t forget the spiteful look on the boy’s face as he happily looked at my birthmark every time I had my body measured.
I had no idea why they were doing this.
But after graduation, the reason for the bullying became clear.
Another friend told me that he had confessed that he was being mean to me because he was jealous that I was on good terms with a boy that the friend of the main perpetrator liked.
When I think of the person being bullied, I wonder why I had to go through something like this. I felt a feeling of sadness and hatred rising at the same time.
I drowned out those feelings and decided that no matter what the other person did, I shouldn’t be dragged down by it.
I decided not to return hostility even if it was directed at me.
I knew that fighting would only add fuel to the fire and would not solve anything.
The only way to avoid being consumed by negative emotions is to forgive the other person.
People who bully do not bully others who retaliate, and usually involve those around them by tricking them or making them unable to retaliate.
Be strong so you don’t become a target. That’s what I decided.
People are bullied because they are seen as weak and don’t fight back.
Then I have no choice but to become stronger.
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